Sometimes I think I’m a glutton for punishment.
We are still actively trying. Blood tests and a consult from our GP told us that I definitely have PCOS and I need the extra help. So I’m on 500 mg of metformin. Luckily, Husband’s sperm test showed that he has super swimmers (the doctor was so impressed and said he hasn’t seen numbers that good in years) so we just need to figure out what’s going on with me.
But on top of that, I am currently using invisible aligners to straighten my teeth. Years ago, I had braces but stopped wearing my retainer. One of my BIGGEST regrets. So now I spent nearly $2,000 to get my teeth straightened in a 5 month process.
On top of THAT, I found out my hearing has deteriorated further. I was born with hereditary hearing loss (nerve damage) and now it’s slowly progressing. I have moderate hearing loss, and my audiologist says she can detect the speech pattern of someone who has hearing loss severe enough to impact their speech.
ON TOP OF THAT, we’re still eating our low-sugar, low-carb, high-fat diet and now husband has lost so much more fat/weight than me and it’s kind of bumming me out.
A few days ago, the battery in our Prius kept dying. He insisted it was something else and he didn’t leave any lights on. I got it jumped a second time and the first thing I noticed was the interior light was stuck in the on position. I turned it off, drove it to the dealership and found out we had to replace the auxiliary battery (not the hybrid one) for $400.
Our 3 year anniversary was coming up, and I wanted us to spend the money on buying special, custom, palladium wedding bands. Now, we spent it on buying a new car battery.
It was a stressful day, and he was down on himself more than usual. So we had a real deep talk about how he needs to have self-confidence, accept that mistakes like this happen (and will continue to happen over our lives), and most of all, that he can’t take one mistake like this as a moral failing.
And here we are, still trying to get pregnant. *sigh*
I think I really do like my life to be as stressful as possible.